Joked!

Hahah..firstly i hv to laugh for my own stupidity.
Why on earth did i open my heavy mouth n said the most lame jokes ever with my principal.
I should just say bye! But no, i said something. That something, that only something would leave mark on her. Hahah..n its not even funny.
Aku memang kena stop buat silly jokes! Actually its nothing. Infact now i couldnt even recall what was her reaction..i didnt look at her face when i uttered that something. So technically, i act didnt know her face reaction. Wether she buy it or not. But still! Oh how i wish i was not there.

just stop this nonsense..

i may be shallow,
i may be too paranoia,
but another movies about bohsia? about all the illegal cultures??
before this, when i happen to watch these kinds of craps, i just thought that no one would ever fall for these shit. seriously.
but now, having to experience teaching in this god-knows-where area, i was totally wrong! these boys will buy for any concept that will make them look good. they look up to these clan.the gang idea. the moves. they even honoured to be called mat rempit. pailang(bapak segala gangster) etc..
yes, some of us may say that movies never shaped the viewer, if yes why do malaysians still uncivilised despite all of the campaigns. senang jer bang, benda baik memang susah nak ikut.
for these boys, malay movies are their nearest references. they never read, hardly watch news, and never been exposed to the positive cultures if not for the school activities..and nowadays dramas dont help either, i remembered one wise man said "drama sekarang menayangkan terlalu banyak cerita2 yang negative, pengajarannya terlalu sedikit dan hanya di penghujung ceita". its like watching 99% the wrong conducts and finally the consequences of the wrong doings, hoping that viewers will learn something out of it. ada ker? dapat ker?
ghost stories?? apa pengajarannya?? dari mula sampai habis cerita tentang dendam, ilmu hitam, dengki, n stuff.. it just brings us malays back to our ancient hole. bila nak maju??

singapora

just came back from singapore.
wut can i say.
the city is very organised. clean. practical.
the people there were kind of friendly.
didn't do any research before going there. regret it till now.
wasted so many hours just to find the agency which i didnt have to.
we should just go straight to the resort world.
geramnya. trip to universal studio was a blast!!! the games there really nervebreaking. best.
i like singapore. one day isnt enough.

Konpius

Aku konpius..whether to let it goes or to tag along.. But for now i just let the time chooses it for me.

yes i do

i miss him.
and this is the least i could do.
wish for the best out of this impetus.

not in the best moment.

im stress out rite now. really in a bad aura. miss her so badly. more than anything else.
this will be the last time. try to get rid everything that will remind me of the memories.
need my ecstasy..merah. but you just so far away. im so addicted to you.to your smile, your giggle, your mumbling sound, your firm round cuddling flesh, your cry.its just you who can shut my world behind me. who can conceal all the craze. bury the black hole. your cry will drown out the whimpering sound inside me.
will settle everything tomorrow. n tomorrow will be a fresh start. new way. new dream. new target. new direction..but the same old me surrounded with the typical dull background. i m bored, torn down, helplessly missing something.
mixed up with almost everthing.

Bestfren

If you could give me the exact word to define a bestfriend.
Loyal?
What do you mean by loyal?
Seriously?
Never you downtalk behind her back?
Pleased with every small problem she turn to you to?
Always a vacant shoulder to be lean on to?
Never run out if money when needed?
Call her now and then.
Share ups and downs.
Now, I really need to know it now.