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Random feelings.. I just waited to feel the numbness of monday morning after a whole week holiday..zero. Instead i felt the rushing of eagerness to meet them. My wonderful iritating students. Why?? I learnt that best thing happens when you less expecting them. Hmmm.. Nice day. Somehow i feel at ease here..everything is beneath my hand..reachable.

I do miss her a lot.. A week night sleep together did make my first night here unbearble.. Such a beauty, inside out.

Less than half a month now. I always imagening myself doing all the chores. Preparing every meal. Discussing all the domestic affairs. These all make all the waiting seems so far away.. But thingking back to the preparation, makes me shrink in horror.. Everything is not set yet.

Early birds get big worms but the second mouse who get the cheese. :)) it is just so hilarious. So much for the optimist.

i need

you to bring back my passion,
you to tell me i was right,
you to breakthrough the impossible,
you to choose the right colours,
you to hum that song,
you to suck all the tears,
you to lie that everything is temporary,
you to churn all the emotions,
you to be here, to witness these all, to spread your arms when i trail you.

Sad

Seeing an old person eating alone at a restaurant makes me sad. After the whole school holiday working at KOK, i've seen many old people ended up eating alone there. Mostly old man. No, all of them were men. Why was that possible? It was so heartbreaking.

New year resolution..

i havent thought yet.
its alreday 11th jan.
rushing will just bring uneasiness.
so let the time be.
and will do whatever i pleased.
learned new word today; borborygmus- the rumbling or gurgling sound caused by the movement of gas in the intestines.(which i have a lot).
oh no, hearing that shakes my mind,
i ought to pay all my ptptn debt.
oraite let that be my half year resolution.
before moving to the whole new world.

#901 - surely the unjust shall not be successful(28:37)

The key is modesty is the 2nd best policy after honesty..

Hahahah.. Gelak dulu.. Bila sesuatu perkara tu kita ambik serius memang begini la jadinya.. Aku pin ikut serius.. The story began like this: one late evening, i posted something regarding to a video on dr M speech about politics among students though i didnt watch the clip.. I commentd based on the qouted from the clip that moreless sounded like this: mahasiswa skrg kalau nk berpolitik pon biaq dapt degree, master etc dlu. Pastu nk berpolitik sampai pencen pon xpa.. Lebih kurangla bunyinya tu.. With no bad attention or sounding serius i replied: kalau ada dip, degree or master tp susah nk dpt gheja pon xguna juga. Tak sangka my comment could spark some ppl.. N they were serious minded i told u.. One guy even said lebih kurang la bunyinya mcmni: statement mcmni lg dayus melayu...etc.. Pnjang sungguh.. Bukan sorg yg bagi reaksi begini. Ramai.. Mula2 baca terkesan jugakla.. I told my wise dad and he said: biaqla, budak2 lg..ok relax sikitla.. But i have to make my statement clear. What i meant was: nowadays, your degree or master will not determine your success..as experience is the best teacher.. Aku replied pnjang jugakla.. Bukan nk tunjuk pandai or nak bergaduh.. Cuma nak jelaskan ayat aku yg pendek sebelum ni yang mencetuskan salab tafsir..tapi tak salah kan aku cakap yg sekarang ni memang susah nk cari kerja. Ada yang cakap budak melayu sekarang memilih. Nk gheja yg hebat2 saja.. Hg cakap mcm tu sbb hang dh ada gheja. Gheja kerajaan pulak tu.. Mungkin hang berkawan dengan mat2 yang malaih2. Hang xdak kot kawan yang ada diploma/degree tapi gheja bancuh ayaq kt kedai makan, gheja kat supermarket, gheja kontrak, gheja gstt..degree tp keja kerani gaji 600.. Hg ada? So your saying showed that these people were lazy or dayus? That they just wait for job? Masa aku komen tu aku takdak la tepikiaq pasai ni semua. But after i read all the reactions made me think all 0f these.. My real point was: tak kira la tahap pendidikan hg sampai mana, itu bukan ukuran kebijaksanaan hg!!! Yang belajaq sampai obersea pon bole kawen sejenis kan?? Dan yang ada pendidikan takat darjah lime pon bole jd jutawan.. Panjang lagi nak kupas tp aku dah mengantuk.. If by any chance u read this poat(which is impossible) i just want to clarify myself..no harm intention okey! Ni lagi satu: dok abg abg, aku lempang kang.. Abg ngn abg dh la..

Things that annoyed me..

Im not perfect but somehow i still have right to hate some conducts.. Maybe what i hate is what i am.. Mirror effect!
1st n foremost: i just hate the what we call now "intrend" fb status.. Bragging diri sndiri with a dialouge.. Ohman!!! Tolong la wey..sometime the status from a teenage girl was forgivable given thought that she is still in her young and vibrant mind, but adult like me??? Bedebush!!(1 of the sound effects that i just hate) nak contoh dak??
Not so young: pakcik bagi teh ais satu!
Pakcik: eh, anak sapa ni comel sgt??xsekolah ka?
Not so young: bedebush!!!(dlm hati) adaka kata aku sekolah lg..mudanya aku..
Ni eg yg not dat dame annoying..this is what some of us like to post.. Aku mmg ada post dialog tp as long as i could remember they were about my studs. Or kalau ada pon mmg iwas one of that type kot..
Next: oraite, this one is much talkable.. The pointed-mouth watering pose!!big twinkling eyes: very familiar with this pics?? Gila kan aku ni.. Sangat xdak benda lain nak buat.. Seriously, aku dh tahap naik menyampah tgk.. Rasa macam nk block ja.. But just couldnt do that.
Lagi: itsbeen 4days now since i started doing my kok bread again.. Seeing this scenario made me sick with the teenagers nowadays.. Mkn satu family tp masing2 sibuk pegang hp masing2.. Makan,hp diam..So sick!!!
Ada byk lagi tp simpan dlu la..
# yang mana aku remove from my frenlist tu bkn sbb nk cari pasai ka or nak putuskan silaturahim, but i think the less we know of each others life is better.. Xdak la salah paham.. Cos i m a bit paranoid.. Semua igt tuju kat aku.. So better of like this..or kalau aku dh tahap menyampah sgt pling tidak pon i just hide the status.
Oh ya: one more thing: i couldnt take too much talk.. Im not a murai person so i prefer a small talk.. Bknnya cakap x benti.. Pening..

merah learned about mika's different part.

she was nowhere to be seen for 3 days. was sent to her fav nanny. and stopped by just now just to say holla, to tokwan,maktok,aunts,uncles. today she learned something new..she was so amazed with mika's private part..im not sure but maybe that was her 1st encountered with the boy's private part. she stared forever at that part.. she even ignored everybody's laugh.she even changed her seat which was rare counting that she never likes her position changed unless needed. she was so confused cos her eyes were not even blinking and finally she touched it to believe it and she seem so satisfied with the finding! cos then she covered that part with mika's clothes. cousins! they are so cute together. with her calling him "Mitaaaa" with a high pitch voice..so blessed with these 2 creatures and soon to come...

#sunglaring almost a day and was outspaced then by the envy clouds with all means#