yes i do

i miss him.
and this is the least i could do.
wish for the best out of this impetus.

not in the best moment.

im stress out rite now. really in a bad aura. miss her so badly. more than anything else.
this will be the last time. try to get rid everything that will remind me of the memories.
need my ecstasy..merah. but you just so far away. im so addicted to you.to your smile, your giggle, your mumbling sound, your firm round cuddling flesh, your cry.its just you who can shut my world behind me. who can conceal all the craze. bury the black hole. your cry will drown out the whimpering sound inside me.
will settle everything tomorrow. n tomorrow will be a fresh start. new way. new dream. new target. new direction..but the same old me surrounded with the typical dull background. i m bored, torn down, helplessly missing something.
mixed up with almost everthing.

Bestfren

If you could give me the exact word to define a bestfriend.
Loyal?
What do you mean by loyal?
Seriously?
Never you downtalk behind her back?
Pleased with every small problem she turn to you to?
Always a vacant shoulder to be lean on to?
Never run out if money when needed?
Call her now and then.
Share ups and downs.
Now, I really need to know it now.

Sekolah..

"aku nak ikut hg p jalan2 lg Fatin!"
"tak bole wey, hg kena balik awai. Esok hg sekolah!"
"wuaaaaa! Aku kena sekolah. mcm budakbudak! Smpai ketuakah aku akan berada Di sekolah?? sekolah tak sudah!
Aku akur lalu pulang ke benut. Bohsan balik hidup.
Karoke lagu "hampa" memang layan la.

Sekadar renungan bln puasa.

Kebelakangan ini banyak sangat bencana alam yang berlaku dikalangan kita. Here are some thoughtful writing taken from solusi which most if us including me tend to ignore the signs that obviously shown infront of our own bare eyes.
Sabda rasulullah s.a.w. ; "apabila harta baitulmal tidak dibahagikan kpd hak, Dan amanah menjadi tawanan org, Dan zakat dipandang sbg denda(paksaan), belajar ilmu agama bukan kerana Allah, suami taatkan isteri, derhaka kpd ibubapa, seseorg lebih memuliakan kawan drpd bapanya, besuara keras didlm masjid, org fasiq mnjadi ketua, org hina mnjadi pemimpin, dimuliakan seseorang kerana takutkan kejahatannya, ramai penyanyi wanita, byk alunan muzik yg bertali, diminum arak drpd pelbagai jenis, org Islam kemudian melaknat org Islam yg awal, maka apabila berlaku perkara2 itu tunggulah turunya angin taufan yg dasyat, gempa bumi, sedutan bumi, bertukar rupa manusia kpd kera Dan Babi, lontaran2 azab, Dan azab Akan turun satu lepas satu spt rantai manik yg telah putus Dan teburai.
Mana antara diatas yg tak terdapat dalam Malaysia.aku rasa semua tanda2 kemungkaran diatas dah ada. Cuma tunggu masa ja nk dpt balasannya. Sekadar renungan untuk kita bersama.

Kisah hari ini.

My classes ended at 1150. So i went back to teacher's room and start marking books.suddenly I recieved SMS from is telling me she was on her back to seremban.she took crk on Friday..so I took my bag and went to to the office to apply crk for tomorrow. Aku nak balik kg jugak wey...wawawawa. But now here I am again in bilik peperiksaan sebab takut nk p mintak cuti.takut kena reject lagi. It's been half an hour now and I still need extra power to ask permisson. Ya Allah tolonglah hambamu ini yg rindukan kampung halaman serta isi didalamnya.

Marhaban ya Ramadan

Bersempena dengan kedatangan Ramadan ni, aku dengan tulus seikhlas hati nak memohon maaf sekiranya tutur kata dan bicara kasar ini terhiris luka hati sesiapa. Biasalah mulut manusia memang selalu telanjur kata, telebih bicara. Semoga dengan kedatangan puasa ini aku lebih diam drpd berkata atau bersangka buruk..
Dah telajak cakap bulan puasa ni tak sedaq yg tahun ni dh masuk 2thn aku sambut puasa di benut. Dulu kalau time study 1st puasa mesti balik buka kt rumah. Tp thn ni nampaknya anakanda rusputih tak dapat pulang sebab 1st day posa jatuh hari rabu. Mana nak Dan balik.. Rindu la nak mkn best2 hari pertama. Selalunya takda yg beli.semuanya masakan rumah kecuali buah Dan kueh dulu dulu.Masakan paling diinginkan dibulan yg mulia ini tentulah gulai ikan temenung, gulai udang, gulai ketam Dan gulai gulai sebagainya. Dulu kalau masa kecikkecik tak posa kena jaga pintu depan.jaga setan kata ayah.sapa suruh tak posa.biaq org yg posa mkn dulu..rasnya mcm tak penah jaga pintu kot. Puasa waktu kecik mmg best sebab malamnya penuh aktiviti selepas terawih. Terawihnya 2 rakaat ja, yg lebih p baling mercun.