School trip

School trip should be fun. I remember when i was form 4, our class organised a trip to cameron highland. Yes, we were a bunch of 16-year-old teenage girl n we planned for a trip to 3++ km trip. Amazing. Then, we're the one who chose the right teacher to accompany us! There was no crazy rule.(no jeans,only covered shoes to name such) that's the time we could fashion around(not the nowadays young teenage fashion-legging n stuff) more to fancy tshirt, jeans n shoes.
Having talking about this, im going to accompany a school trip to kl tonight. At first, i was so looking forward to this trip. I even bought new decent clothes just for this trip. Now im not sure wether i can wear them or not as we(students n teachers) are given tshirt to be worn on that trip. Haishh. Ok, its not just about the clothes, i just dont feel like going. All the stuffs are running through my head rite. With the unfinished syllabus, the wedding thingy, the workloads....etc. I'll trt my best to make something out of this.. Just enjoy the trip as afterall it is free anyway!

You.

If you were here, u'll definitely be my first choice.
But you weren't.
You are now way too far in a better place.
If you were here now, i bet we will be the best friend ever,
It will be you i parade around, it was your secrets iwill threaten you with.
You are my best mate, my best secrets keeper, my sponge tears, my punch angers, my everything.
Our last day wasnt the best moment to remember.. I pray for you every now and then. I just love you in a way no one will ever understand.
It's between you and me. Between our own codes. Between our own nights spend together. Between our morning call moments. Between us.
You and i. I just wished i treated you differently. I should treat you the way i wanted they to treat me not the way they treated me. I am sorry.
I love you. Will always do.

late

today, i just want to type. no special purpose. well, just now, someone texted me and asked me about my days during my school year. this someone said that someone had told him i was always being late to school. it took me awhile to freshen up my junior high memories. oh yes. i always came late because back then, my only transport to school was the HBR bas(a public transport). i had to wake up as early as 530 am to be able to catch the 630 bus..to made everything harder, i had to walk along the creepy alley(which was somebody's backyard) to reach the bus stop. and at 630a.m, it was still dark. sometimes i woke up late. and i'd missed the bus. or sometimes i was there on time but somehow the bus was packed like hell. and i ended being late. not everyday but maybe once or twice a week. the blue people(prefect la tu) wrote my name and asked me to collect rubbish around school compound.luckily during those times, there was no STUDM(sistem tadbir urus displin murid)where every little or big rule u break will go online and will stay there forever. Even KPM can access ur record.school year was not the best time for me. not that i hate school years, i just dont cherished that moments that much. i like the matric's life more.

Today's log.

What's in their minds?? Weird hah! Though i had been there long time ago, i still couldnt figure it out.. They were too complicated. Even complicated than a war. U will never know until u know! They wont show it. They will left you unsolved.
Case 1: Yesterday, i caught girls shouting at each other in their class.. The reason behind this quarrel was: they were playing tug n war and eventually ended up hurting each other! Oh man, 13-year old girls! And the worst part was neither of them admitted that they were fighting though obviously both of them were crying and weeping. I just handed them to the most fierce teacher in the school! Girls to man talk.

New member in the family

Welcoming our 14th baby member. After waiting for 13years, she was finally delivered into our big family. Our baby sister. Named Rus Maryam(not official yet) My most favourite name. My mom hv waited for 13 years for her 2nd child and finally she got a beautiful little princess. We are so happy for her and dad.. Never ending babies. After we the grown ups, next the young teenegaers, and now the babies. Full of laughter and cry.

Blank2012

Random feelings.. I just waited to feel the numbness of monday morning after a whole week holiday..zero. Instead i felt the rushing of eagerness to meet them. My wonderful iritating students. Why?? I learnt that best thing happens when you less expecting them. Hmmm.. Nice day. Somehow i feel at ease here..everything is beneath my hand..reachable.

I do miss her a lot.. A week night sleep together did make my first night here unbearble.. Such a beauty, inside out.

Less than half a month now. I always imagening myself doing all the chores. Preparing every meal. Discussing all the domestic affairs. These all make all the waiting seems so far away.. But thingking back to the preparation, makes me shrink in horror.. Everything is not set yet.

Early birds get big worms but the second mouse who get the cheese. :)) it is just so hilarious. So much for the optimist.

i need

you to bring back my passion,
you to tell me i was right,
you to breakthrough the impossible,
you to choose the right colours,
you to hum that song,
you to suck all the tears,
you to lie that everything is temporary,
you to churn all the emotions,
you to be here, to witness these all, to spread your arms when i trail you.

Sad

Seeing an old person eating alone at a restaurant makes me sad. After the whole school holiday working at KOK, i've seen many old people ended up eating alone there. Mostly old man. No, all of them were men. Why was that possible? It was so heartbreaking.