Myday

It's been almost 4days if u add in tomorrow i been away from school. The feelings are mixed up, relieved, miss them much, relaxed( though ive to drive 40mins everyday to the venue) n sometime i even felt guilty for leaving the classes for too long especially the good class. I know the lower class would be jumping around on my absences. For that i feel really deprived for every hour making their lives misserable. But i know deep down they miss me.
Being a teacher consumes much of my energy. U r dealing with the hardest phase of human psychology- teenagers- oh yes, on paper my working hour is from 7am-2pm. But really guys, we all have been in school no matter which stages, say if that is the real working hour for us, then who teaches extra classes? Who coaches every athlete? Who drives every contestent to the competition venue? Who is the chaperon for every school activity? Who did most of the clerical works when the clerk is an asshole? Do we get Extra wages for the ot? Btw we do get paid for the extra classes though itS no that much. The point is no point. Just need to letgo.. Extremely weary sometime but no gold could replace the satisfaction of hearing the sound "ooooooooo" or "aaaaaaaaa"" and even "ya ya ya" in my p&p process. And somehow i miss that moment though i like being rest from classes.
Talking about school, this year i've been assigned 4 classes ranging from average to super weak! I donno how to describe my feeling right now. Wether sad, vexed, annoyed or ...... There are more than 6 students in the 3rd class who still stumble in reading and im not talking about english! Dalam bahasa melayu!!!!!!!! And one of them even got an
A for pemahaman paper in upsr! N ofcos D in penulisan. When asked, they said they were given answers to memorise and some were asked to copy friends answers next to them, and teachers gave the answers outside the exam hall. Soalan bocor tak payah cakapla. Semua dapat. Aku taktaula kalau benda ni just happened here in pontian. Kenapa ada guru yg sanggup downgrade maruah sendiri demi nak jaga maruah sekolah? Aku just tak paham. I tend to be very emotional about this matter. Cos it is hard for me to teach them let alone for them to grap what i've been mumbling all year round when they r suppose to be learning according to their own level. Dah la sudah la.
And today, i heard from the form 1 student that her mom which happened to be his teacher that time gave the answers in upsr. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah. Pecah perut! And now they said nowadays students are brilliant! Oh yes the brilliant copycat generation.
Siakap senohong,
Gelama ikan duri,
Kalau cikgu yang ajaq berbohong,
cikgu la bapak segala pencuri!

# just let them be.